dresser drawers

isn't funny how over time we'll hold onto something, but it'll gain different uses or the same uses with different items. kind of like dresser drawers?

i've had the same dresser for probably twenty years [since shortly after i was born]. the drawers still have the same purpose. The top drawer still holds unmentionables, the second pajamas, the third shirts, and the bottom tee shirts and band shirts. when i was an infant it obviously didn't hold the same pajamas it holds now, but it still holds pajamas.

it's so odd how things can shift in and out of our lives, but they can be switched for identical things. grammer school to middle school to high school to college. all schools, different levels of learning.

i guess this is just a thought that occurred to me upon reflection of recent events. it makes me sad how things can slip away and be replaced without us always acknowledging it.

perfect piles

i'm self diagnosed ocd. i partially blame my father. i know that it is probably not a legitimate problem when it only manifests upon stress, annoyance, and sadness...but we'll run with it. i like things in their place, pleasing to the eye, and in perfect little, as even as possible piles. i also favor even numbers. and even spacing. and organized clutter.

when things are a mess around me, i feel like my head is a mess. i strongly feel that your surroundings influence your life. i feel much more organized, in all aspects of my life, when my surroundings are neat and in place. i think everyone has a little bit of this, so don't call me weird on this thought.

i am beginning to embrace again. i'm a little over pleasing others and worrying what they'll think. is that confidence i hear? we'll see. bring on the new.

a secret: i'm odd.